Meant To Be Or Not Meant To Be

It took  me a lot of courage to actually blog about this incident. It is not something that I am proud of nor regret but it is something that I can say took a toll on my years of life, as I have never had an “event” in my life that happened back to back so to speak. These so called “event” that happened to me made me ponder and wonder, made me stronger as a person, made me have time on my own to really, really think about all the things that I have, had gone through throughout my entire time. Call it coincidence, Karma, you deserve it bitch, or whatever you can think of but at the end of the day who are we to judge others based on their life experiences when we ourselves are not even better ourselves ehk? You can tell me what you think or your thoughts at the end of it all. I won’t debate coz it does not matter as that is something that had already happened and it’s gonna stay in my memories as an experience for my upcoming future encounters in life.

I have been staying home due to an accident (2 accidents in fact) that happened to me on 2 different occasions for the past 2 years. In mid of September 2016, I was involved in a motorbike accident that happened along Commonwealth Drive while I was on my way to work. I was actually working part time as an entertainer, singing and playing guitar for the guests at Wine Boss. I was the pillion (with my guitar on my back) and my current boyfriend was the rider. The impact of the accident left me with a fractured left rib cage and thus I had to stay home to fully recover from the accident. Luckily, I was not required to have any surgery done to the fractures. The doctor advised me to just let the injuries recover on its own with plenty of rest and less movement. And so I did. It took me about 8 months to fully recover from it. This is how it all started.

I met my current boyfriend 2 years ago in an app (Smule, a singing app), (which I never thought of in the first place), nor did I ever in the world imagined that anyone would fall for someone or have a relationship through an app BUT it did, trust me! LOL! Anyways, after months of chatting and exchanging texts, we decided to meet. Oh wait! Did I mentioned that he was married? Well, yes he was and I knew about it. And so was I. (Sad but true) I was proceeding with my divorce at the time I knew my bf, from my estranged husband of 7 years. The marriage was based on ka-ching $$$ (I”ll blog in a different post). Anyways, after the meet, me and my bf grew closer by day and we kept in touch constantly through social media and meet ups as and when we have the time. That one fine day (which resulted in tremendous change), he happened to come over to my crib and his intention was to send me to work. While I was getting ready for work, we engaged in a conversation about each other’s marriage life and my divorce proceedings and he told me that he actually had the intention to divorce his wife for quite some time (which he actually did), way before he even met me but he just don’t know how sure was he about letting the wife go even though his wife was no longer staying with him under one roof. He was kinda skeptical about divorce as he thought that marriage was supposed to live happily ever after (which I knew by now that such things are merely fairy tales) and he was afraid of being rejected thus made him stayed on his marriage which was dysfunctional. So later that night, after the conversation, we were on our way to my work place when the accident happened. My leg was pinned underneath the motorbike and my bf was on the opposite side of the road. Luckily for us, the impact was not severe to the extend that could result me flying off the bike. I was then drove to the hospital by the ambulance. X-rays showed that I had a fracture on my left rib cage and my guitarist and my teenager son was called to come to the hospital. So I was told to rest at home with supervision. Hmm… Home!?

I was at that time, living on my own at a rental apartment. At this point, I was thinking to myself. How on earth am I gonna be able to fend to my needs without hurting myself further? But as stubborn a person I am, I was determined to be on my own and ensuring that I will not be a bother to others. Then my boyfriend voluntarily offered to stay with me to care for my daily needs and tending to my frustration recovering from the accident. Besides, he said he was part of the cause as to why I was in one in the first place even though it wasn’t entirely his fault. My parents (they didn’t know he was married) was reluctant in the first place but since they had no other choice as I was stubborn and determined to stay on my own. And so… that was how my boyfriend landed himself staying with me! Months past by and we grew stronger as a couple living together as if we were married to one another despite both of our status was married to our own spouse! You may think that is “dirty” but hey it takes two hands to clap and two people to tango! Get it!?

I didn’t say that living with my boyfriend was easy and happy always. Yes he was caring towards me, ensuring that I take my meals and meds on time, sending me to my toilet breaks and all and following up with doctor’s appointments and reviews on my condition. But he also cheats! The whole time we were a couple, I can’t say that I didn’t know that he cheated on me, because if he could two time his wife though they are no longer together, he could also do that to me but as naive as I can say I was, yes I didn’t know till the day he stayed with me. I found out that he cheated on me by sleeping with my long lost childhood friend claiming that he was drunk. He also cheated on me with other women too. (his wife was totally out of the picture, for now, that is) Remember when I mentioned that he was afraid of rejection from women? Well, rejection my arse! Mad!? FURIOUS, DEVASTATED, ENRAGED, DESPISED, HATE etc.. you name it.. I was! I was ready to kick him to the curb. But then, he apologised and cried saying that he was sorry and all.. yadda yadda yadda…. And what’s next? I accepted his apologies. I believe in giving others a chance to amend their mistakes. Naive? Good heart? Soft hearted? Stupid? You haven’t heard the last from me.

Months past by and I recovered fully from the motorbike accident. Soon, it was time to celebrate Eid Mubarak. It was around in July that year 2017 that I went back to Batam, Indonesia to celebrate Eid and my younger baby brother’s 18th birthday. My son was unable to follow me due to some plans he had with his friends so I went back with my boyfriend, my younger brother and his newly wed wife. I thought that it would be a good occasion since my younger brother got hitched and my step mother have not met with his wife. Thinking that it was gonna be a good family bonding occasion, I was not prepared as to what happened after that.

We stayed in a hotel I frequent which is quite close to my step mother’s house. I knew the manager who runs the hotel so my rate was kinda cheaper. So, my boyfriend and I had a standard room and my younger brother had suite with his wife at an affordable and reasonable rate since they are newly weds. Upon our arrival, we gave our baby brother a surprise as it was his birthday. We played go kart, ATV and other activities on our first day. Then later in the evening, we went back to our step mother’s house to have dinner and we had a ‘get to know one another better’ session. I wanna highlight that my sister in law had a slight misunderstanding with my dad but it was resolved. We also made plans for the next following day which is to have dinner as a family at the hotel in my younger brother’s suite. The next day, we ensure that all food are bought, prepared and served on the table while waiting for both mom and dad to arrive. I can say that at this point of time, I thought nothing much about my baby sister in law until I ran into some issues with her. She told me that she was kinda envy with the way my boyfriend treated me, being nice and loving, holding my hands while crossing the busy road etc (I was like “Hmm, you don’t know the other half of what he did to me!”) and I just smiled sheepishly. She kept on praising my boyfriend on how good he treated me forgetting (I assumed) that she was actually married to my younger brother! Grr… I just kept quiet and smiled the whole time she was praising him and saying how she wants to be treated like a princess (that’s what she claims my boyfriend treated me!) and telling me that my younger brother is unlike my boyfriend. I do admit that women likes to be pampered once in a while especially coming from the man their in love with. Correct me if I am wrong. Well, I kept myself calm and collected for the next day since the family reunion dinner was a okay. I won’t want to go much into detail as to what happen after dinner just that I felt what happened that night shouldn’t be happening at all in the first place. I told myself that maybe my sister in law was new to our family customs/practice. Giving her the benefit of the doubt but then again, I felt that what she did was totally rude. Heads up – she quickly changed to her “nightgown” after dinner and family photo taking even when we were still in her suite room. For God’s sake! We knew it was about time to leave the room as it was almost bedtime but please.. mum, dad, younger baby brother, my boyfriend and me was still in your suite! We were arranging for transport to transport both the parents back home. I saw my dad’s face and I knew he just simply do not want to say or utter anything as he does not want to spoil the ambience of the night. But that look on my dad’s face tells me that he felt that he was being ushered forcibly out of the room asap. In short ‘Can you please get the hell outta my room now!? Time to sleep!’ kinda feeling. My sister in law didn’t say it but her actions spoke a thousand words.

After sending both my parents, me and my boyfriend went back to our room and we had our conversation on what just happened right after dinner. It was supposed to be a mere harmless conversation between two people but it turn out to be a tragedy. We both had our point of views and it turn out to be an ugly conversation cum war. We both were physically fighting with one another not knowing that actually it has got nothing to do with any of us. I told him what my sister in law said about him being nice to me and it escalated to us debating, pin-pointing and then it lead to war. By the time my younger brother came to our room upon knowing about the quarrel, the fight ended with me having a broken foot. My boyfriend was too big a size that while he wrestled me to keep me from going out of the room, he tripped and accidentally stepped on my foot putting his body weight on me. Sigh… Actually at this point, we couldn’t confirmed that it was broken. All along we thought that I just twisted my ankle. We eventually called my younger baby brother to asked him if he could bring some ointment to the hotel so that I can massage the pain thinking that it will be okay. Little did I know that my younger baby brother came with my dad! I was shocked to see my dad in front of my hotel room. He came in and looked at my injury and told me that he suspected that it was a fracture. So he made a call to my step mother and asked her if she is able to get someone to come to the hotel and massage my foot the traditional way. Indeed, an old lady came to my room and massage the injured foot and she too said that it might be a fracture. After the lady left, my dad then asked what happened that led to the mess. I told my dad how it escalated to the point that I injured my foot. And the last thing we knew, the four of us, me and my boyfriend, my younger brother and his wife was reprimanded by my dad. Not trying to be bias but my younger brother and his wife was blamed. My dad said that if only my younger brother had ‘educate his wife’ before she meet us, such things would never have happened. Well, what can I say. What’s done cannot be undone…

The next following day, we headed back to Singapore. We made a stop to my step mother’s house to say our goodbyes. And… there I was on a wheelchair being transported to the ferry in Batam Centre. (I smiled whenever I flashed back to that day). We made it back safe and sound to Singapore.

My boyfriend brought me to the hospital the next following day coz I was complaining so much on the pain. There, I was told and confirmed by the doctor that my left foot was fractured and that I needed surgery. I was scheduled for surgery next 2 weeks after. 2 metal screws was implanted in my left foot. After the surgery, I had months of staying at home (again) and was not able to walk normally. I was suggested to be on crutches for the next few months down the road to recovery. Once again, my boyfriend was the one that cared and tended to my every needs. Every movement that I made, be it at home, or visiting the doctor for my appointments, it hurts like hell! Months goes by and thinking that my boyfriend was an angel turn out to be a nightmare AGAIN! Yes, he cheated on me again! This time, he cheated on me with a colleague of his by texting lovey dovey messages to her. (By this time, I had already encountered 6 cheats by my boyfriend) Urgh! Hell break loose! We argued almost every day, every hour of our lives. It was unimaginable, I cried every single day feeling sorry for myself. With my current condition, it made me lose my self esteem, it demoralises me to the point of making me helpless and hopeless. But still, he didn’t leave my side. He was always there for me in my time of need. I don’t know if he stayed with me because he cared and felt sorry for me or because he truly loves me for who I am. It was a real test that challenges me to the point that I thought to myself “Okay, maybe God is trying to tell me something. Maybe He wants to see to a certain extent on my level of patience towards someone. Or maybe He wants to punish me for my ‘crimes’.” Maybe… there was lotsa maybe’s playing on my mind. But whatever it was, I was determined to get better and full of hope to be able to walk again. Just when I had faith on my recovery, I was slammed with another news that my foot had to be operated on again to remove the 2 metal screws that was implanted because I had difficulties and my recovery was getting nowhere. There I was again, for the second time, at the hospital having my surgery done to remove the 2 damn metal screws. At this time, what does it tells you? Bad luck? Karma? I just dunno. Anyways, after the second surgery, guess what? Another few months of road to recovery! Yay!… Sigh.. By this time, I was already on the verge of losing myself entirely. I thought that there was never gonna be a time that I’m gonna recover everrr….! Just when I thought my world was a disaster, it took a turn! There was a saying ‘ There is light in a midst of a cloud’.

Out of the blue, my boyfriend told me one day that he finally made a decision to divorce his wife. And he did! While me on the other hand, is still undergoing the process the whole time even up till now. So can you imagine being me going through all these at one go? The divorce proceedings, boyfriend infidelity issues, my own well being. What could be worse! Not forgetting to mention that I was not able to work this whole entire time. So who fork out the bills? None other than my boyfriend. By this time, I am pretty sure that you think I am lucky to have someone by my side despite his infidelity. His infidelity was not something that major to the extent he sleeps with them (tho he did admit he did ONCE), it’s just that he simply can’t get enough attention coming from women through messages. It may seem harmless, there was a big BUTS tho… My patience towards my boyfriend was beyond. Even my son and his girlfriend admitted that if they were to be in my shoes, they will never be able to accept; whatmore be with the person ever again. But I did! I gave him chances again and I wasn’t about to give up on him. At first, my son thought that I was pathetic but he told me after analyzing my situation, he was rather proud than feeling sorry. He said that no woman in the entire world would be able to pull through what I have gone through and put up with infidelity. It somehow made me felt better about myself.

The day that I have been waiting for all these times for the past 1 1/2 years finally came to light! I can walk again! Yay! Without the help of crutches or wheelchair! I finally made it to the day that I was able to walk again tho not 100% but still it was worth it. My patience throughout the whole entire time pays off although I must say that I did broke down a couple of times. I must admit tho it was really topsy-turvy! Tell me about it! Besides, who on earth have that much courage and perseverance to be slammed with issues and problems all at one blow? I can’t say there aren’t any but the percentage of one going through obstacles and not even think about committing suicide was none. Even though I succeeded, I must always remember that at one point of time, I almost gave up myself.

My boyfriend on the other hand, had some issues on his end while I was on recovery after my 2nd surgery. I did mentioned that he cheated on me with a colleague of his. AND.. that colleague gave him problems! She actually made use of my boyfriend and made him a fool. She made it look like my boyfriend was going crazy over her and that he can’t forget her and want to be with her. She told her then ‘boyfriend’ (now an ex) that my boyfriend was head over heels with her. She portrayed it in a way, to her then ‘boyfriend’, that she was one in a million and that guys are going crazy about her. Turn out, SHE was the CRAZY one. I managed to talk to her then ‘boyfriend’ (someone’s husband) and he told me how she told him about my boyfriend. Sounds complicated? It sure was! Cut it short, she didn’t managed to be with either one! LOL! The ‘ boyfriend’ ditched her (upon knowing the truth about her from me and others that knows her well) and went back to his wife. The rumour that she started about my boyfriend involving her parents made my boyfriend so effin mad that made him confronted her at her house together with me and my family. She told her parents that my boyfriend promised to marry her once his divorce was finalised when in actual fact he didn’t. (I did my research). She even claimed that my boyfriend ever met her parents and spoke to them personally about their daughter and promising to marry their daughter. It was a total chaos! And knowing that she ever brought a foreman colleague to justice on a molest case that she claimed, made my boyfriend tremble even more. Why? Because my boyfriend IS a foreman himself. (look at how ironic things are) My boyfriend even asked around about her encounters with the previous foreman and turn out that majority agreed that she framed that individual. Whether the incident really happened or not, the individual was dismissed from work and charged in court, sentenced to 10 months in jail. I’m not here to speculate anything about her tho I admit that she is rather tacky. All in all, my boyfriend really flared up at her front doorstep, cursing and swearing at her. Me? I was there witnessing everything and my dad did gave his piece of advice too to her family. In the end, the whole situation ended with the police. After the encounters with that crazy colleague of his, my boyfriend swears to my dad that he never ever will cheat on me ever again. And he even promised my dad that he will cherish what he have now knowing that my family loves him like one of us. He told my entire family that he will never ever want to trade anything for us as no one (not even his own family member) ever stood by his side and defended him like how we did even though we know that he did mistakes after mistakes. Sounds convincing ehk? Well, it’s too early to tell.

Anyways, I picked up the pieces and slowly put it back to place. I am now starting to go for job interviews and am hoping to secure a career and embark on a new journey in life. Despite countless of resumes sent, and interviews, I am still waiting for the day that I am gonna be accepted in a company. I am excited to go back to work! My boyfriend and I am living life like any normal couple with my teenage son. He goes to work while I stay home and cook and clean the house while waiting for job opportunities. I don’t really have anything up my mind for now except that I am waiting to go back to society, socializing, work and having colleagues. I am taking one day at a time…

Well…. What a story! It gives me a sense of relief that I let this out of my chest. I dunno what makes me attempt this on here but I guess it’s just something that I want to share. I dunno if it will ever benefit anyone out there reading this long essay of mine but I hope it gives others the knowledge that no matter what life puts you through don’t ever give up on yourself easily without putting a fight. I’m not saying to physical fight yourself or others but just fight the battle in within yourself.

One wouldn’t know one’s strength until you fight your own battle. One wouldn’t be able to recognize own inner physical and mental abilities until you’ve been put to the test. Lastly, you will never know that the chances that you gave to others will eventually be fruitful.

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LIFE

At a time like this, I thought and asked myself. Why are we always put to the test and challenges in life and at times it felt as if it is beyond our limits and level of patience etc. Then I think again. Harder this time round. If we are not being put to those tests and challenges in life, we wouldn’t be able to:

  1. know if we could manage to overcome our own fears or any other mixed feelings
  2. better ourselves in judging future situations
  3. recognize our inner strength
  4. differentiate
  5. remind ourselves HIS existence

I guess these are 5 main points to keep reminding myself that everyone of us have our own personal tests and challenges to either pass or fail. It all depends. But no matter what tests or challenges befall upon us, at the end of the day, we are all going to the same direction on a different path.

Rental Flat – My Neighbour/s

Every single day of my life living in this rental unit for almost 5 years, with my son, was really testing how patient I can really be. I only get to sleep during the day as I have Insomnia. I tried all ways to sleep at night (to the extend taking sleeping pills prescribed to me by doctors) but was unsuccessful. In the end, I stopped taking all meds and just live with the insomnia. Anyways, its not about me and my insomnia. Its about the neighbours that I’m surrounded by.

The door to each unit is very close so even when you are just having a normal conversation, the next 2 units beside you can literally hear what you’re talking about ,like a whisper. My unit is in the middle of the stretch of 5 units (10 units actually, 5 of each as its divided into 2). So as I mentioned, the door to each unit is that close, and my closest neighbour is an elderly Chinese couple and an elderly Malay couple. Basically, from what I know, I’m the youngest family on the stretch of 8th floor. The rest are elder people. I don’t really interact with any of them much except for Hi’s and Bye’s. So you roughly have an idea on what I’m about to say.

I was awakened by a loud slam of a gate coming from the Chinese unit, accompanied by shouting and yelling. It was from the Chinese auntie. (Honestly speaking, THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME that such nuisance occurs coming from her. ITS EVERYDAY since the last 2 months back and its getting very frequent lately.) As much as I do not know what the commotion was all about, I was very pissed and fumed for getting up in a shocking manner due to the slamming of the gate. So, I shouted at the top of my lungs from where I was, on the bed. I then turned to look at my phone for any msgs coming from my one and only syg (Mus Muliadi). I texted him and told him that I was awakened by the damn noises and he advises me to call the police. And so I did.

Actually, I’m not the ‘kaypoh’ (nosy) kinda neighbour nor am I the fussy type. I’m more like ‘ mind your own goddamn business’ and ‘don’t give a shit and can’t be bothered’ kinda person. In short, I care less what others wanna do BUT when it comes to my sleep….. Damn right, I’ll growl like a tigress and will look at you with piercing eyes, angry, becoz I NEEDED that sleep! For God’s sake! Urrghh…!!!!!!!

The police arrive shortly after I made the call. They went to the Chinese auntie’s unit and then mine. The police came into my house and they asked me questions about my neighbour. I told them everything that I have experienced living next door to the auntie. The 2 police (Chinese guy and Malay lady) asked me if this was the first time I called them and they both told me that this complain about the auntie was not the first time they encountered. It was numerous. OMG!!! They took my statement and advice me to go to the HDB to lodge a complain against my neighbour. They also suggested for counselling on neighbours dispute. And they also told me that if such thing happen again coming from the auntie’s unit, they will issue a stern warning. So as for now, they will only advice the auntie to stop her nuisance. They then went back to her unit and asked me to lock the gate and close the door and they left after.

Thinking that the nuisance from the auntie stopped, the next thing I heard was another argument. WHAT THE HELL!!!!! This time round was from another unit. It came from the Indian family, next to where the Chinese auntie was (2 units apart from me…GRRRR..!) So, can you imagine yourself living in this environment!!!!????? Urrgghhhh….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Popularity

John Tucker Must Die

First and foremost I would like to say that each and everyone of us went through school days. As much as I can remember those times, I don’t really like to recall much of my time there. But still, some memories of it are funny and rather stupid/silly (to me that is) if you ever just sit back and let your mind run to it.

Anyways, there will always be one (or maybe more than that) like John Tucker (in the movie) in any school. The good looking, well known, hunk, nice abs etc. And which school girl does not want to be or rather have a date or be seen with the most popular, handsome boy. I dunno, you tell me. And as much as our parents send us to school to obtain good results for our future, still, you can’t deny the wanting to be with a partner to share your school days or to some girls, they just wanna be let known that they are pretty and beautiful OR they just wanna get their schoolmates jealous and full of envy. Simply put, they too wanna be the popular girl with good looks and boobs (if they have it). LOL.

But this movie itself, I personally felt that actually there is no need to be with the most popular guy. And you don’t need to impress anyone to get the attention from anyone. And for John Tucker (Jesse Metcalfe) to lie to each and every girl he dated (respectively) is so uncalled for. So what if you’re the popular one? Do you need to lie your way out to get a date? That’s totally hypocritical. You’re not YOU! You’re just being someone you’re not, just to get attention though I do admit he was good in whatever he does. I call these bunch of people ‘Attention Seeker’.

Lori Spencer (Jenny McCarthy) a single mom to Kate (Brittany Snow), in this movie, she somehow played a big part in Kate’s life. Kate has been seeing her mom with different guys (which she labeled them as ‘Skip’) walking in and out of her mom’s life. It somehow affected Kate’s growing up as a teenager. As much as her mom is finding her love and someone to be with, she prolly forgot that Kate needs her too. Thus, the whole situation of seeing her mom dating different guys made her do foolish things without thinking, forgot who she really is and changed her to become someone she is not.

As for the 3 girls, Beth (Sophia Bush), Carrie (Arielle Kebbel) and Heather(Ashanti), I wanna say that as much as they are that stuck up and a brat, they came out strong as a team. They put their brains and beauty together and formed up a good combination of themselves into one person to get even with John Tucker. And that created person happens to be Kate. She came out from nowhere, was a loner and becoz of the 3 girls, she became noticeable in school. They carried their plan to destroy John,very well I must say, despite the hurdles along the way. But, that was not necessary. As much as John was such a jerk to the 3 girls, but he was such a gentleman when it comes to impressing Kate. Eventually, John and Kate are not together as the plan was never for her to be his girlfriend but she ended up with the other Tucker, Scott (Penn Badgley).

Summarize:

  • Never lie your way to be friends, to be close to or to get attention from others. Be honest, be natural, be yourself, be YOU! If they like you (for who you are not what you are) they will accept you just the way you are regardless.
  • Never ever try to impress others to like you coz they will expect more (we’ll never know) coming from you.
  • Looks isn’t everything! Remember, that each and everyone of us was born differently and unique in some ways. Some with brains, some with beauty and some with other hidden talents that we do not know of.

I guess that’s pretty much what I can say about this.

 

“The” Ride

roller-coaster

Life is like a roller coaster.

My say and Thoughts :

It has its ups and downs…. Day or night, rain or shine….. It is still gonna be there waiting for someone to take the ride.  It all depends on how much you wanna so into riding it despite others say. It could turn out to be a beautiful ride, smooth ride, bumpy ride, memorable ride or whatever ride you may think of it as. Either way, you still have to and will wanna ride it. Otherwise, you will never know how thrilling or fun it can be. You can never let others tell you the feeling of riding the roller coaster coz the feelings differ from person to person. Well, it may be the same (I dunno) but still, you need to ride it to feel it yourself. They may tell you what it feels like but that’s based on their experience of riding it. Whether its gonna make you puke, heart pound and raced or its gonna make you smile, jumping with joy and wanna ride again… It all depends on what you think AFTER you took the ride.. You will have thoughts running in your mind saying something like “What IF the roller coaster is not strong enough or what IF I fell riding it….?” Well, no one knows until you get yo’ ass on the roller coaster seat and experience it yourself. Ask yourself “What IF I just give it a try?” IF  the ride was not meant for you to enjoy it, then so be it. At least you gave it a try. You only need to take the ride ONCE and then will you only know and will be able to share your personal experience.

There are some that even after taking the ride and felt afraid and swore never wanna ride again, little did they know, without them realizing, they are back again for another try. It could be the reason that they wanna try to overcome their fear or just simply accepting a challenge or they wanna enjoy the ride with friends or whoever the person may be.

Basically, life is similar to it when I come to think of it…….

A Time To Kill

Without watching the movie, the title itself is very vengeance, hatred, revengeful and threatening if you ask me.

I was so into the movie that when I watched it, I really felt the intense, the anger, the sadness. The little girl, Tonya (Rae’Ven Kelly) raped, brutally beaten, hanged but she did not die and was left by the river. As a parent myself, I could not imagined what I would do should something like that were to happen? I’ll prolly ran amok? I dunno. It’s hard to tell. But all I know and would feel is that, the anger in me will make me curse and swear the person (tho I know it will not change what has happened) to not only burn in hell but to die horribly and suffer his entire time before his death! Pfft….

And the kid who had to go through the torment moment throughout her entire life, I really felt the sense of loss, low self esteem, isolation, timid, afraid, and if she did not have the full support, love and care from her family and friends, she will never be able to pull herself back together and be strong. She maybe wasted or maybe not depending on her perseverance and her will power to move on after the trauma.

I was so touched at the way the lawyer ( Matthew McConaughey) defended the accused (Samuel L. Jackson ). He didn’t seem to care about himself and the threats that he and his co-workers received from the community. To the extend the co-worker (Sandra Bullock) was kidnapped, beaten and hospitalized. The trouble and flaws the lawyer had to go through just to prove one’s innocence. He brought justice and defended not only to prove his capabilities as a young lawyer but also to break the unjust prejudice and racism among the community.

Summarize:

  • Treat everyone equally regardless of their different beliefs, religion, skin colour etc becoz everyone of us believes in one thing… WE ARE MORTAL AND WE ALL DIE ONE DAY!
  • If you do not want anything to happen to one of your kind (people), then you should think before you acted on someone becoz KARMA WILL HIT YOU HARD WITHOUT YOU REALIZING! 
  • Be supportive to someone who really needs it as you will never know how much it will mean to the person and how much your support have helped him/her throughout.
  • When you start on something, ensure that you have done not only your best but give your fullest and have put every single drop of sweat/effort you have on you. Go all the way! Only then will you know, that what you do bears fruit or otherwise.

I guess that is all I could think of. If anyone of you have any more to add to this, please do leave comments on this blog.